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Life is short…


Hey guys! I’m going to dive into some deep thoughts 🤗 So as you may or may not know, I’ve had a rough year. It all started last summer when my husbands aunt, Jill was overcome by cancer. She wasn’t just my husbands aunt, but more of a friend or big sister… she was one of reason, “got me” and pretty much always had my back. It was tough, her cancer was metastasized breast cancer but it had traveled in large amounts to her brain. It was extremely hard to watch her fight and often wondered what the effects would be on her 2 teenage children.

About 9 months later, I got a call at work from my husband that my little brother had been found deceased by my dad… an event my dad will never unsee. I can’t quite describe the feeling I got other than complete sickness and shock. It’s been about 6 months and I can’t still quite believe he is gone. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about him and wonder if there was anything I could have done to prevent his death. Ultimately, we learned arteriosclerotic cardiovascular disease is what took his life. Listen to your body and always be your own advocate!

Mid June my fur baby was suddenly diagnosed with an inoperable hemangiosarcoma, she was an 8 year old boxer. We were told the most humane thing to do would be to put her down within the next couple days. Hysterical….. is all I can describe myself as being that weekend. At this point, I felt as though I had holes in my heart, of which will probably never fully heal.

I am a dental hygienist and quite often develop close relationships, connections really, with my patients. These people are my friends, they listen to me vent, I listen to them vent… it’s quite therapeutic for all of us actually! I see most of them between 2-4 times a year, more than I even see some of my besties! Well to make an extremely long story short, I broke this past Thursday. I had a patient I’ve seen for approximately 8 years tell me he had brain cancer and wouldn’t be continuing treatment. I tried to hold back my tears with not much success, throughout the appointment.

I could not stop thinking about how many changes even 6 months can bring, not to mention my past year. Life is short. Don’t hold back, be you and do the things you love, because really…. we ultimately don’t know how much time is ahead. These are most of the reasons I started my blog. I expressed to my patient how sad I was and gave him a hug, because I don’t know if there will be a next time.

I hope I didn’t bum you guys out, just keep in mind what really matters in life… now go enjoy this beautiful long weekend to your fullest! 😘 Annddd go do some shopping!! 😉

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